Blog to support the book "Creatively Self-Employed: How Writers and Artists Deal with Career Ups and Downs" by Kristen Fischer
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30-something Jersey gal working as a freelance writer. Starbucks addict, beach-lover, kitty mother.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
To hell with the New Year's Resolution thing...
It's not that I can't complete it, I'm just tired of it. I don't want to set goals, like I said previously. I can attain goals. I'd rather BE AWARE and JUST BE and let myself go. Let go.
I need to do that more than any life-list-check-off thing.
So for this year, a little something different, courtesy of the always-creative Andrea Scher.
"My challenge for you is to answer the following questions and declare 2009 complete. Rituals can be even more powerful when others can witness you. You are welcome to do this exercise privately, but I suggest sharing with a friend and/or posting your lists here. You are in good, safe company.
1. What do you want to acknowledge yourself for in regard to 2009?
As far as the resolution to query three magazines per month, I am proud of doing my best to keep my resolution. I held on to it tight all year. I made new connections and planted many seeds in order to get more magazine jobs. I learned that I need to focus more on it and work hard to make it happen--and that the writing isn't hard but making time is. I learned that it's okay not to go head-on because I've had a lot on my shoulders and am not sitting around querying all day because I have a thriving copywriting business--and I'm very proud of it.
There were of course tons of personal things going on that I was challenged by and achieved.
2. What is there to grieve about 2009?
I'm focusing on my resolution solely here (because there was tons to grieve this past year, especially the passing of my beautiful Bobbie girl). But I am sad that I didn't ink a contract for magazine work but I understand why and I am ready to move forward. And that's a plus because I came farther than I thought I would. I thought I'd crumble if I didn't achieve this big goal and thought I should be "here" and I'm not where I thought I should be, but I learned to LET GO. Huge!!!
3. What else do you need to say about the year to declare it complete?
Okay, the next step is to say out loud, "I declare 2009 complete!" How do you feel? If you don't feel quite right, there might be one more thing to say...
The final step is to consider your primary focus for the year to come. What is your primary intention or theme for 2009? Is it the year of joy? the year of self-care? the year of partnership? Stand up and say it proud, "2009 is my year of...."
2009 is my year of letting go of my high expectations for myself. I am not where I wanted to be but I'm tired of "shoulding" all over myself. I am where I am, and things will happen in God's time, not mine.
Take the Mondo Beyondo challenge in your blog, or leave a post here!
Monday, December 28, 2009
Photo: From the amazing Andrea Scher
I love this time of year because it usually offers a break. Time to think and reflect. The world seems to stand still. It seems like no one is working and if they are, they're not really too productive.
But this year, at least today, there's not much of a break for me.
I am back into work today, knee-deep in the muck of it. Projects, unanswered emails, phone calls for new projects. Where is that relaxing week where all you encounter is "I'll be back in the office on January 2"? I'm not finding it this year.
But I'm still gonna make time to reflect and to plan.
This year, I've decided that I won't have a resolution. I don't need a big fat whopping goal. I'm an overachiever anyway. I simply need to assess where I am and determine where I want to go next. And if I don't have a destination, maybe I'll just be. Just take it all in and be where I am. Enjoy the moment. The goal setting and achieving has always been so easy for me...but the standing still? Not so easy. Maybe that's where I need to be...without a grand plan or a massive goal. Just to be...and to be aware. That's what I'm focused on.
I just wish I could have a break from work so I could meditate on these things. But I'm taking breaks. A few more hours and I'll be done for the day, I can live with that.
It's hard when you, as a freelancer always worried about keeping the dough coming in, can afford to take a break but cannot.
So whether you're working over this holiday/winter break or just relaxing, I wish you the best. Plan, dream...do and be whatever is best for you.
For me, I'm just gonna BE.
Monday, December 07, 2009
One of my creative habits is knitting and I finally took a picture of a project that was near and dear to my heart--because it was for my beautiful nephew, Quinnan.
He IS the turkey!!!!!